HOME

Have you ever had the feeling that you didn’t “belong” in the world? Have you ever questioned “why” you were located where you were? Many years ago, I learned an important lesson that served to integrate my Self with the world.

For most of my childhood I recognized such a huge gap between myself and my family. The gap with my family actually generated the guiding question of my life – “How do we get what we get in life?”

In pursuit of my life question, I realized that I had never felt “at home” with the family I was born into. I was so very different that I felt as though I didn’t belong. I felt I was treated as though I didn’t belong. It took years for me to recognize they just didn’t understand me. My sisters would say things to me like, “I don’t understand what you just said! Who are you?” Rather than attempt to understand, they ostracized me.

At least 20 years before I learned about the Law of Attraction, I began to recognize I did feel at home with people who were interested in similar pursuits in life. Then, I married.

Wow! I had put myself into different environment, this time, of my own making! My father had not been around much and I had no brothers, so my experience with the opposite sex had been circumstantial. The several men that educated me about what it means to be a man includes my only son. Most women don’t realize just how different men are from themselves. Are the conflicts between men and women simply expectations each has that the other think, speak, behave and love just like they do? 

In my life I had walked into many environments in which I didn’t feel at home as I searched for my “place in life,” until I traveled abroad. With a round trip ticket to London, England, and a loose itinerary to go to Paris, France, I traveled to see another part of the world. I instantly felt at home in both London and Paris. So many locations I visited felt familiar in ways I couldn’t explain. I had interactions and opportunities with local residents which felt as though I had been with them before. Déjà vu? Possibly. Past life? Who knows?

My experience on this trip answered part of my life question. I realized that Home is within the Self, not a place, not a family, not a person. Home is where we make it and take it. Once we realize we “create” our home and we take it wherever we are, life becomes more predictable, safer and more stable. Home is where we each choose to join life in the pursuit of enlightenment, equanimity, empowerment and enjoyment.